YOUR CORE DESIRE
Let your Core Desire rise
like a dragon
inspiring the world
with beauty and power.
HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS PRACTICE #7:
YOUR CORE DESIRE
The integration exercise for this week is a simple "listening" practice. Your Core Desire is like the Sacred Listening Exercise except the object of your attention is yourself.
Instead of listening with your ears, you listen with your heart. You listen for your purest desire, for that which you love from your core. This love connects your personal, interpersonal, and transpersonal selves.
Your core desire is an integrating principle: it is rooted in a love that comes from beyond you, through you, and into the world.
At the end of Self Observation Exercise #6, you tapped into your chief fear, your deepest vulnerability. This vulnerability is what generated the protective network of reactivity. Your vulnerability is also where you find the key to growth.
"INSIDE YOUR VULNERABILITY IS
After observing and digging in the previous weeks, after opening and clearing, after feeling the raw energy of your woundedness, you are prepared to find your core desire. Within the horizon carved by your deepest fear you have space to receive the gift that comes through the transformation of your suffering.
By inward listening you contact a level that is not swayed by instant gratification or fear. In self-observation or meditation, you attune to this frequency. You have been developing awareness and acquiring discernment of core energy. When you consciously experience core energy you acquire a navigation system that enables you to differentiate what comes from reactivity and what comes from deeper wisdom.
In our culture, we create so much noise, busyness, and distraction that we often lose this inner navigation. In this course, we structure time for inward silence and inner vision. In the silence, with eyes closed, we develop inward ears and inner eyes. Like any skill, we become better with practice. Sometimes we follow what feels like inner prompting and are surprised by results that are not what we expected. Results teach us.
"A TREE IS KNOWN BY THE FRUIT IT BEARS."
We learn by taking responsibility for the consequences of our actions. We listen for guidance, look for opportunities, then act and observe the results. There are no mistakes, only experience and awareness. Every lesson is repeated until we get it. Look, listen, feel, act, respond, observe, and adapt . . .
HOW TO PRACTICE KNOWING YOUR CORE DESIRE:
1) FIND A QUIET PLACE BY YOURSELF: For privacy, this exercise can be done in your car, in your office with the door closed, sitting outside at lunch, and even in the bathroom (sometimes that's the only private place). Find a place and a time during the day when you can have a few moments undisturbed. If you are in the middle of a high-stress moment, take a ten-minute break, and find a private spot.
2) SIT DOWN AND CENTER YOURSELF: Feel your feet firmly on the ground and take several deep breaths. Relax into centered awareness. If you have meditated in the morning, it is easier to return to that experience.
3) FOCUS INTO YOUR HEART: Once you feel relaxed, breathe into your heart. You may imagine a ruby red color filling your heart to strengthen your focus. Feel the radiant energy expressed by your heart. You may feel warmth or tingling, or you may not. Center your mind and your breath into your heart. To facilitate the experience you may find it helpful to gently rub your sternum.
4) ASK YOUR HEART THE QUESTION: When you’re relaxed and ready, address your heart with the question, "What is my core desire?" Offer the question and listen. Do not rush to fill in an answer. Be patient. Listen . . .
5) RELAX INTO THE EXPERIENCE: You may receive images, words, or a surge of inspiration. Don’t grab onto an answer. Continue to listen and feel. Let your breath flow at whatever pace or rhythm it requires. Continue to focus into your heart. You may be distracted or see, hear, and feel nothing. Stay with it. If you find yourself in a vision, going somewhere, doing something, follow it. Do not block it. Let it build. Let it move as it wants to.
6) CONCLUDE THE EXERCISE: Slowly bring your attention to the sensation of your body as a whole and to the feeling of the environment around you. Gradually open your eyes. Record your experience on a notepad for transfer to the Daily Practice Log, then stand, stretch, and shake out your arms and legs.
You may have received a vision or an intuitive feeling for what you want. You may have found nothing definitive. Through repetition, you will come to recognize the subtle feeling of your core energy. It will come to be your guide. You will sense this inner voice in the midst of daily life. You will differentiate this voice from other voices and learn to trust its guidance. Sometimes this voice shouts or uses strong body language. Most often, it speaks in whispers and inner nudges. We need inner stillness to tune in.
When images and feelings come, test them in action. See if they stay with you and grow. Core desire is known by its quality of service to others and the world. If a vision endures, expands, and brings joy to you and others, know that it comes as an expression of your deepest being. Test all things and discern their value. Your core desire and your service in the world are one and the same. Listen for it, trust it, feed it, and let it shine every moment.
PRINT OUT THE DAILY PRACTICE LOG
AND USE IT TO KEEP TRACK OF YOUR PRACTICE